I think a lot of people would agree that life is really unpredictable. Heard of the saying? ‘NO, this CAN’T BE HAPPENING!’ That was the exact thing I thought when I first heard that my baby sister was dating the guy who once fell for me!
Good news?? I don’t know about that!!! I freaked out completely when my baby sister E broke the news to me…. ONE YEAR AFTER THEY GOT TOGETHER. I was shocked, angry and worried. Anger, yes, more anger than worry, more shocked than surprised. I could not think positive.
A million things dashed through my mind, clashing like bomber cars in an arcade. I couldn’t think right. I snapped. E immediately tried to explain and calm me down, I just couldn’t listen to her. I remember that day vividly. It was about sunset, we were meeting our parents for dinner. Of course, as anybody would imagine, ANGER and FRUSTRATION got in the way and we ended up going our separate ways to the same destination. At dinner, the atmopshere was tensed. Later, we just ignored each other for a good few days.
Ok, ask me why I felt negative? She’s my sister, my little baby sister who I still think is only a little baby, who would never really grow up, whose hand will always be in mine, who should always listen to her BIG sister who’s 5 years older!! Yep, that had always been my mindset until recent years. I couldn’t accept the fact that she was dating someone, someone she calls a ‘BOYFRIEND’ which really sounded disturbing at the time. What was worse, this guy ‘fell’ for me not too long ago then, well, according to his confession letters, he did. You would have thought this couldn’t get any worse, but yes, to me, the worst thing was that he’s one of my best friends whom I politely instructed not to get too close to my baby sister when I left for my further studies in Glasgow. Little did I know..
They fell in love, now dated for a good few years. Since he dated my sister, I always kinda hated him. Is he using my sister as a substitute, is he sincere to her, will he get her to convert to his religion. I was always doubtful, suspicious and very negative. I tried the soft and hard approches to influence my sister to leave him.
Today, I think i’m a horrible sister to interfere in that way and to think I could even react like the way i did is unbearable. I claim I love my sister, but I now know if I love her, I should let her choose her path herself, I should let her make her own decisions and only give my opinion. I love my sister very much and I’m so glad I did step back for the last two years to let them have a chance to work it out. Love is unconditional, and no matter what my sister does or choose to do, I will always support her from now on. I’m so happy for them now, they seem like a really happy couple and I wish them all the best and i’ll be praying for them all the time. She’ll always be a baby sister to me, but i now acknowledge that we both have grown up.
E, if you’re reading this, I’m truly sorry, I love you so much.